Thank you to my wonderful follower - a beautiful mother of 2 children who i just adore! After discussing this blog with my follower, I have decided to start putting it out there a little more. My main concern was that it really isn't polished, it's higgledy piggledy and often rushed... but I guess that just sums up parenthood. I would love a professional blog but that would undermine the intention of this particular project; I don't have a mahogany desk with a view, I have a laptop on the arm of my lounge, typing wildly before the munchkins reappear from their afternoon naps. I know that there are many parents out there trying to achieve everything from dishes to their tax refunds during this wonderful 'siesta' and it is hard!
I have gone through periods where I used this naptime to just rest, then motherguilt took over and I used the time to set up craft activities for the afternoon. I became so tired after a few weeks of 14 hour days with no break that I felt depleted and my tolerance became non-existant. GUILT. I stopped doing craft activities to let more natural activities take over but we seemed to do be doing nothing. GUILT. fill in these hours with organised activities and the chilren became worn out. GUILT. Meet up with a friend whose 3yr old can count to 30, realise I haven't counted with Master 3 since February. GUILT. Keep both children at home with me and they fight for personal attention. GUILT. Put them in care on opposite days so I can dedicate a day to each child... Hmmm... not feeling guilty... should I be feeling guilty..? I bet i should be... Why am I not feeling guilty?? CRAP! Now I'm feeling guilty about not feeling guilty - AARRRRGGGGHHH!
So where is all this pressure coming from?
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