I'm back! After 3 weeks of ear infections, stomach bugs, colds and flus I am finally hopeful that we have extinguished all diseases from this house. It was never fun being sick but now that I am a mother, I have to say that I am borderline germophobic. I hate seeing my family members sick, I hate the fact that one little cold can be passed from one person to another to another, I hate that we pay for preschool while our children lay lying ill on the couch but the biggest hate for me would have to be the dreaded MANFLU!! Honestly, my husband has been genuinely ill, he works really hard and barely ever complains but do I have any sympathy for him? None. Something about him being sick makes me FURIOUS!
I'm fairly sure I haven't always been so mean - I remember a time where I would have recommended a good rest, run him a bath, maybe even made him some soup (well, opened a can - but that's really good for me). So why the change? What has me so bitter that I feel nothing but resentment for my poor, sick husband? Maybe it's because I no longer have the luxury of being sick, maybe it's because I am so busy all the time and when I see another adult in the house who is unable to help me, I take that as them being unwilling to help me, maybe it's because I know when he's better he will leave and I will be left with either a sick child or sick myself - and I guarantee you I will NOT be resting for a day.
Wow, three weeks of illnesses has really taken it't toll. If we get to choose our next life, I'm thinking bear...I could think of nothing better than to hibernate through Winter and come back refreshed and renewed for Spring. Am thinking spring carnivals, more sunlight and butterflies fluttering by - no, wait a minute, now I'm just thinking about the sleep. Ahhh yes, nobody asking anything of me, no deadlines and no bags under my eyes for up to 100 days at a time!! OK, 100 days might be excessive but it's nice to dream.
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